Is this thing on?

I need to come back after a lengthy hiatus. I need to quiet the demons who interrupt my attempt at rational thought; to shoo away the dust that seems to cloud my view of sanity.

Things will be different this time. I have a different focus. Perhaps a more scattered view, but my soul craves the outlet, the virtual companionship.

I have missed you, WordPress family. I promise not to be gone so long again.




The wind blew with a surprising gentleness, the sides of the tent barely moving despite the lack of protection from the elements. Slowly stretching he rolled over and brushed the hair from her cheek. She inhaled deeply, snuggling deeper in her sleeping bag. Rising silently he exited the tent. Not stepping far from her, he stood looking out across the vastness before him. In the peaceful stillness of dawn the sun had not yet appeared above the mountain’s summit leaving the valley below covered in shadow. Closing his eyes and inhaling deeply he acknowledged that he had never before felt this type of serenity. Stuffing his hands deeply in his pockets, he listened to the sounds of morning surrounding him. He slowly opened his eyes as the sun began to peak above the ridge and watched the light slowly creep across the boulders and crevasses. The touch of a hand at the small of his back caused his heart to race and a smile spread across his face.

And so I trusted…

Years lost
to broken promises.
Rare trust
in anyone’s words, deeds.
And then
we met and the walls fell.
Threw myself
into you, the abyss.
from you, but I trusted.
in you, your brokenness.
My heart
cracked open. I waited.
“Not now,”
you said. “I cherish you,”
you said.
I chose to wait and trust.
Your deeds
never changed. Your heart did.
honesty. Always there
for me
when I needed my friend.
for you still hearing you
say, “Not
now.”  And so I trusted.
wavering in my faith
in you.
Then I peaked and learned what
lies you
had told me. Betraying
my trust.
Truth would have been easy
to hear.
Yet, while claiming honest
words, you
lied. Completely. My trust
once again. A month gone
and still
it hurts. I would have been
for you if you had shown
to me and to my heart
that I
had opened fully to you.


I’ve long feared you
Your acid tongue
Your horrid actions

You shaped me into
A fearful woman
Cringing from my past

Never feeling whole
Never feeling protected
Never feeling loved

As I grew, I rebelled
My tongue grew acidic
Yet my heart was raw

Somehow knowing
I was strong
Despite your words

Somehow believing
I was lovable
Despite your actions

I long ago vowed
To overcome
And I did

Yet over time, I faltered
Feeling unworthy
Hearing the hatred

Decades of ups and downs
And I finally understood
Yours was self-hate

I was an easy target
Exhibiting your traits
Both good and bad

Increasingly you tried
To beat me down
Words cutting to my core

Actions showing indifference
Knowing that even kindness
Would soon turn to anger

When I finally understood
I was at my weakest
But I spoke my truth

You attacked again
I ignored – my only
Remaining defense

Silence as I admitted
The battles I’d faced
Within myself

Standing strong, yet
Knowing something
Big was coming

Centered, praying
Feeling stronger
The blade struck

To feel

Not knowing how
To react
I prayed

“Be strong.” “Do right.”
Support I’d
Never felt before.

It had always been there
But I’d been to afraid
To accept any help

Then a flippant comment
“You’ll finally be free.”
My heart burst open.

What a concept
Free to be me.
Free to be open.

What a horrid price to pay.
I watch your body fail.
My heart cries.

I pray for peace
I pray for comfort
I pray for freedom

Both of us
Will soon be free
Of this mess

We both built it
We both destroyed
Any hope of peace

I have always loved you
No matter what was said
I only wanted love back

Feeling empty yet
Confident that I have
Broken the cycle

Failing for years
I finally feel strong
Doing the right thing

I won’t miss the anger
I won’t miss the abuse
But I will forever miss you


A year ago a fragile heart was busted open.

Words that seemed real were only lies.

Protective walls, then all that remained was rubble.

A tarnished angel appeared bringing blessings.

Without intent a new world opened.

Immeasurable changes caused by openness and honesty.

A beautiful new perspective with a lighter step and smiles.

Loneliness creeps in, pushed back by the accomplishments.

The journey always more beautiful with the promise of tomorrow.


I have been repeatedly reminded in the past weeks that God DOES answer my prayers. It may not be the moment I ask/beg/plead, but God does come through. I need to remember the blessings and not what I perceive to be the deficiencies. I need to be patient because I have often been blessed with that which was my goal. I only need open my eyes and see that my dreams (the good ones) do often come true.

Just for fun: It was a Dark and Stormy Night (or Oscar’s Annual Vacation)

This is a “just for fun” story I had written with a colleague and friend several years back. I received his permission to load this onto my site. It was a tag-team project that we wrote over a period of several days. I’ve made a few edits, but have kept the integrity of it. Thank you to Russ for the inspiration!

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Day 1

It was a dark and stormy night. What else could it be? Oscar had just begun his summer vacation. He knew that with the looming typhoon the crops would be watered and whole towns would be swept away over the next 7 days. It was just his luck.

His co-workers had anxiously awaited his vacation schedule, as they knew to plan their getaways after, and only after, he had planned his. For it was well known that “The curse of Oscar’s vacation” would prevail again this year. Even strangers knew to never schedule a vacation the same week as Oscar.

Farmer Abner Crockett who knew a friend of a friend of a cousin of a friend of Oscar always planned around Oscar’s schedule. Oxen were stowed , sandbags were packed.

“Let the skies open!” yelled Farmer Abner to the world. He knew Oscar had begun his annual trek to the Jersey Shore.

Upon arriving in Belmar, Oscar changed into his favorite combo of a bold Hawaiian shirt, shorts passed his knees and black socks pulled up high. He looked out across the street toward the ocean and declared, “I think there used to be a beach here!”

The angry Atlantic waves smashing against the breakwall and had eroded the coastline, as if to welcome him to his upcoming seven day ordeal.

Day 2

On Oscar’s first full day of vacation he sat on the beach sipping his tasty fruit smoothie and enjoying the sunshine. He was particularly delighted because his smoothie had an umbrella in it that matched the sea green umbrella shading him. He grinned at everyone and no one in particular.

Suddenly, he heard shouts from the people in the water. Just as he looked up, a wall of water towered before him.

“Figures,” he said as he took another sip of his frozen treat.

Day 3

Oscar awoke in a make-shift morgue down an alley off the boardwalk. Upon suddenly sitting upwards, the white sheet fell off.  Slappy Morgenstern, the morgue attendant, looked over and seeing Oscar seeming to awake from the dead, fainted.

Oscar sigh, then searched around for smelling salts. Not finding any, he uncorked a bottle of formaldahide and held it under Slappy’s nose.

Slappy slowly came to and said, “Gee mister, I am sorry I ‘toe-tagged’ ya, but judging from the look on your face, I thought you were already dead.”

Oscar sighed, looked around for his clothes, then finding them all cut up on the floor, picked up some pants lying next to a body and slipped them on. “I guess these are as good as any.” He waved goodbye to Slappy and headed back out into the sunshine to take a nap on the beach.

Day 4

Oscar saw a shanty-turned-restaurant on one of the piers and decided to give it a try for dinner.

“Botulism Bay. What a clever name. I wonder when they opened this place. ‘Botulism’ is such a unique word. I wonder what it means.” An oddly bitter smell wafted across his face as he opened the door.

He found a small table in the corner that had a window facing the crashing waves. Despite the windows, it was very dark in the restaurant. “This is such a clever covering on the windows,” he thought as he tried to look through the grease and dirt covered glass. “Hmmmm…. what’s that?” In the corner of his window was scribbled what appeared to be, ‘HELP M” with a long smudge trailing off the M. “I wonder who M is and why he or she needs help.” He thought he felt something run across his foot, but decided it may have been the wind coming in from the open patio door.

Perusing the sticky menu he felt his taste buds perk as he read the appetizers – specifically the “grilled shrimp with a sun-dried tomato mayonnaise.” He decided to order a margarita this time to accompany the shrimp, deeming the smoothy of two days prior “unlucky”.

Awaiting his appetizer, Oscar finalized the last of his dinner order, selecting a swordfish steak with side orders of coleslaw and potato salad.

As the waiter arrived to serve Oscar his grilled shrimp, Oscar couldn’t help but notice the unkempt appearance of the waiter’s uniform. He had to admit to himself that the stains appearing on the man’s sleeves looked a little too much like blood stains to be anything but that. Shaking off the sense of foreboding, he dove in to savor the unique taste of the shrimp.

Finishing the shrimp quickly and feeling satisfied as one does after enjoying a new dish. Oscar leaned back on his chair, rubbed his belly, stretched his hands up high, then reached down, took the umbrella out of his drink and emptied the remaining margarita into his gullet.

Seeing the waiter across the room, Oscar waved him over discreetly.

“Waiter, that was a very unique dish. Being a lover of fine cuisine, can you please tell me a little more about the preparation?” As he finished his sentence, he felt a threatening gas bubble begin its way through his abdomen.

“The tomatoes are picked at the peak of ripeness, laid out on the dock outside. Any tomatoes not picked up by the seagulls within three days are then blended with the chef’s own recipe of week old eggs, vinegar and some other proprietary ingredients.”

“So, you have a special drying area out on the dock?” inquired a perplexed Oscar feeling the gas bubble working its way around.

“No, just wherever the fishermen have not placed their lines and equipment, we lay out the tomatoes. Your dinner will be out in a few minutes.” The waiter walked away to greet the guests who just sat down at the next table.

Knowing he should get up and leave the restaurant immediately and not subject his body to any more questionable sustenance, Oscar was, unfortunately, paralyzed by his insatiable curiosity. “What could they possibly do to a swordfish steak?” he asked himself, not truly wanting to know the answer.

The steam from the dish set before him wafted upwards, like a prisoner climbing a penitentiary wall.

“Ah, swordfish, my favorite!” Oscar squealed with the excitement of a 2-year old given a lollipop.

Suddenly, a foul odor traversed his nostrils. “Maybe it is coming from someone else’s dish,” he thought. Oscar attacked that swordfish steak like a Newarker attacking a car thief.

With his empty plate before him, he folded his napkin and leaned back in his chair with a feeling of complete satisfaction.

“Best part of my vacation,” he thought, ignoring the bubbles filling his abdomen.

As the giddy thoughts of dessert possibilities danced in his head, his stomach growled fiercely. This was no ordinary growl, mind you, but the growl of a wolverine whose meal was just stolen by a vulture.  Oscar’s stomach began twitching which quickly turned into convulsing.

“Must be the jalapeno relish,” he thought. “Maybe a nice dessert will settle it.”

Summoning the waiter Oscar proceeded to order his dessert course. “I’d like to try the pistachio encrusted yogurt parfait,” he announced with enthusiasm.

“Excellent choice,” the waiter replied, “The yogurt is at it’s peek of curdling. I’ll retrieve your selection from our world class dessert tray. It’s currently parked out in the back alley.”

Oscar leaned back to make more room for the parfait and rubbed his belly not unlike an expectant mother. As he did, he felt his innards begin to talk to each other. He shifted his lower half to relieve some of the discomfort.

“Maybe if I drink a bit of water, it will settle my stomach.” As he lifted the glass to his mouth he noticed a strong odor of rotten fish. Not to be deterred he gulped the entire glass of water, but was left with the distinct aftertaste of seaweed and salt. “Hmmmm. Maybe I’m sitting too close to the window. This sea air is starting to taint even my tastebuds.” His innards let out a loud growl of protest as soon as the water reached his stomach. “All this unique cuisine is really doing a number on my body. I’ll bet the yogurt will sooth me.”

As if on cue, the waiter brought over the pecan crusted yogurt parfait.

“Monseur, you weell no-tees ze unique texture of zee chef’s special yogurt parfait. It is a result of zee combination of zee high temperatures at which zee chef keeps zee milk before creating zee yogurt, zee length of time before zee milk is cultured, as well as zee questionable utensils which he uses. Bon Appetit!”

“Hmmmmm. Where did that French accent come from?” thought Oscar as he dug his dessert spoon into the mixture which was more the texture of homemade lumpy mashed potatoes than Yoplait. As his stomach groaned in foreboding protest, he lifted his first overflowing spoonful of yogurt parfait to his mouth. “Wow, I’m used to yogurt smelling sweet. This has much of the same fishy and sour odor as my water. Must be my proximity to the windows. I’ll have to sit somewhere else next time. Ya know, this yogurt is pretty lumpy. Must be a French style. And I’ve never seen pecans so dark and shriveled before. I LOVE this high end cuisine!!!” he mumbled to himself.

The waiter came back to check on Russell, “And how are you enjoying your parfait, Monseur?”

“I’ve never had yogurt so chewy before. It’s quite a culinary experience.”

“Will you be having anything else tonight?”

“Actually, I’d love to have a hot cocoa with a dollop of whipped cream. Do you make your own whipped cream?”

“But, of course, Monseur. In much the same manner as the yogurt.”

“De-lightful,” Oscar purred. “Please bring my check along with the hot cocoa.”

Oscar felt his tastebuds begin to go numb. “Must be a result of this AMAZING cuisine. I wonder if Mama would like this as much as I do?”

By the time the waiter retuned, the  numbness had spread to Oscar’s lower extremities. He was no longer able to squelch the sounds rumbling from his mid-section. “Sir, feel free to take the money out of my wallet. I am unable to move my left arm to assist. And there’s an extra $0.50 in there for you if you can call 911 for me right now. I’m feeling a little faint.” Then Oscar landed face first in his parfait.

The waiter made sure he was breathing, reached down and heisted Oscar’s wallet taking two $20s for the $15 bill, placed the wallet back and yelled into the kitchen. “Yo, Vinnie, we got another one. Better call the ambulance!  Any chance you have any more of those parfaits? I think I could use a few days off myself.”
Day 5

When Oscar woke up in the local hospital, the doctors were pumping his stomach. As soon as the last of the curdled milk hit the bottom of the bucket, a woman entered his room. Without as much as a side-eyed glance at him, she intones, “We are sending you home. Wherever home is. Your insurance has been denied, so we aren’t going to keep you.” Turning on her heels and exiting the room, she pointed to the nearest nurse and said, “Check his wallet and take whatever cash he has as a down payment.”

Groaning much like Lurch from ‘The Adams Family,’ Oscar stumbled to his feet and holding onto the wall to felt his way out of the door.

“Excuse me, sir!”

Oscar turned, almost losing his balance and saw a nurse running after him.

Leaning against the wall as the hallway spun uncontrollably around him, he waited.

“Oh, I am so glad I caught you. We have your bill.” She handed him an envelope and walked quickly back down the hall.

Knowing that his day couldn’t get much worse, Oscar opened the envelope and almost lost the remaining water in his stomach. “NINE THOUSAND DOLLARS! I had no idea fine dining could cost that much.” Shrugging his shoulders, Oscar made his way slowly out of the hospital. As he passed the glass walls of the hotel lobby, he caught a reflection of himself in the hospital’s glass door. “Is that a tattoo on the top of my head?” Not having the strength to reach up to check his head, he gingerly shuffled the five blocks back to his hotel. With each movement, Oscar felt not only the achiness in his abdomen from the stomach pumping, but a soreness on his head that increased with every heartbeat.

With the last bit of energy, he put the key into the lock and pushed open the door. Falling face first onto the mildewed, brownish shag carpet, he unintentionally inhaled deeply. His nose filled with the stench of cigarettes and skunked beer from too many keg parties in the years gone by. With no regard to the cockroaches scurrying out of his way, he dragged himself over to the bed and pulled himself up, collapsing quickly onto the crusty bedspread.

It was all he could do to roll over onto his back. Feeling too much pain to fall asleep, he reached for the remote and tuned the TV onto old reruns of ‘Green Acres.’ “Those Gabor sisters really had it goin’ on!” he mumbled to himself before falling into a deep dream-filled sleep while the ‘Green Acres’ theme ran through his head.

His peaceful dreams of living on a farm soon turned macabre with the farm’s animals turning into the morgue attendant, the waiter from Botulism Bay and what appeared to be a 40-year old tattoo-covered hospital candy striper named Bruno who looked incredibly familiar. In his restless sleep, Oscar smiled and nodded his head as he mumbled “Greeeen Acres is the place to beeeeee.”

Day 5-1/2

Several hours later Oscar awoke to the sound of the Partridge Family singing ‘C’mon get happy.’ He couldn’t help but sing along in his quasi-alert state. “A whole lot of lovin’ is what we’ll be bringin’ to make you happyyyyyy.” He reached up and rubbed the sleep from his eyes, stretched, then felt the now-familiar throb on the top of his noggin. “What the…. What happened to my head? I bet it has to do with that candy striper.” He slowly rolled off the bed into a standing position and walked into the small bathroom. As he looked into the mirror, he couldn’t help but notice the artwork on his head.

“Oh My GOD!!!” He vaguely heard the glass on the TV set break with the high pitched screech he let loose. “Mama is going to kill me!!!!” He moved his head to get a better view of the new tattoo from all angles. “So, I wasn’t just dreaming it! Bruno really does exist! He sure didn’t look good in that white and red jumper. How did he pass himself off as a candy striper anyway?”

Oscar reached up and gingerly outlined the bare foot now permanently etched on his head. “Unless I dreamt it, Bruno said he had a thing for feet.” Leaning against the wall as the room began to spin around him, he knew he needed to get outside. “My stomach is killing me. Maybe I should just take a slow walk on the boardwalk. I’ve already had issues on the beach, in a restaurant and in the hospital. How much harm could a short jaunt on the Boardwalk do? I’m sure the sea air will make me feel much better.”

Oscar scrubbed his face, brushed his teeth, rinsed with mouthwash twice and headed out the door. “I guess I better wear my hat. I can’t imagine the hot sun will be good for this open wound on my head!”

The sun shone brightly. Not a cloud in the sky. A perfect 85 degrees with a strong, but warm wind coming in off the ocean. He headed as quickly as one can after having their stomach pumped, to the Boardwalk and immediately felt better when his feet touched the wooden walkway. “I may actually be able to salvage the rest of my vacation! Only 1-1/2 days left. What could possibly happen to me now? It’s already been so memorable!”

If it weren’t for the soreness in his abdomen and on his head, Russell would have skipped down the boardwalk, he felt so refreshed.

“I’m feeling a bit parched. I wonder where I can find some tasty Italian ice. I think my stomach could handle that.” He watched longingly as a herd of preteens walked by eating their ice cream. “Oh, how I love ice cream, but I think I’m better off with Italian ice. I AM half Italian. Mama would be proud of my choice of treat.”

As he saw the blinking lights surrounding the Italian ice cart, Oscar’s eyes grew as wide as, well, as wide as a huge container of Italian ice. He sauntered over and ordered a heaping paper cone full of rainbow ice, paid the $6.50 and walked away happier than he had felt all week. He looked around gleefully as he ate his ice, not really paying attention to anything in particular. A seagull caught his eye as it walked in front of him on the boardwalk, Oscar thought, “I’ve never noticed those lines on the wood before. They seem to go all the way down to the end. Right down the middle of the walkway.”

He didn’t pay attention to the horn or the people screaming behind him. As he took another spoonful of ice, he heard a loud “THUMP” as he felt himself lifted high into the air. Not feeling the pain until he landed on the boardwalk train’s roof, slowly rolled off the edge and ended back onto the wood planks.

“Damn, and I lost my ice, too,” were the words by-standers reportedly heard as he lost consciousness.

Quietly a little boy said to his father, “Dad, it looks like someone kicked him in the head, too. See the footprint?”

Day 6

Unfortunately, this time, Oscar wasn’t allowed into the hospital. Recalling the insurance issues from his prior visit, the ER doctors ordered him put into a cab and driven back from where he came.

Oscar awoke lying face first in the sand off the edge of the boardwalk. As if he’d been intentionally rolled right off. He rolled over and lay still, looking up at the clear star-filled sky. “Ya know, it really is beautiful out here at night. This sand is still warm from the day… The day? It’s night? What time is it anyway?” He lifted his forearm to glance at his watch. “1:00am? No wonder it’s so quiet out here!”

He lifted himself to a sitting position and heard the rustle of a piece of paper. Looking down at his shirt he saw a piece of paper stapled to his collar. “What’s this? A bill from a cab company? Where did I go? Last thing I remember was eating Italian ice. And, boy was it tasty!”

Raising himself effortlessly to a standing position, he put his hands on his hips and stretched his back in every direction. “I’m not sure what happened, but my back hasn’t felt this good in years!” Brushing the sand off of his clothes, Oscar looked around to make sure he left nothing behind and headed down to the surf. When he reached the moist sand, he removed his loafers and held them as he waded into the surf.

“Wow! What a gorgeous night. I feel so lucky to be here. This is a great way to end my vacation! I should do all over again before I leave tomorrow! I’ll just walk for a few more minutes, then head back to my hotel room and get a few hours of sleep before the sun rises.”

The sound of a beautiful voice singing from somewhere on the beach reached his ears. He didn’t know the exact direction, so he looked all around him in the moonlight as he walked, trying to follow the angelic voice.

The singing was getting louder and, finally, as he approached a lifeguard chair, he looked up and saw a beautiful woman sitting in the chair with her eyes raised to the stars, singing confidently, but in a slow, almost lounge-singer type voice, “Searching for myyyyyyy lost shaker of salt… Some people claim that there’s a maaaan to blaaaaaaaaame. But, I know… It’s my own damn fault.”

“A woman after my own heart. She loves salty food, too!” thought Oscar as he slowly approached.

Suddenly the woman stopped singing and looked down at him. “Hi. Sorry for the singing. I just enjoy the acoustics out here.”

“Please excuse me. You don’t have to stop on my account. I was simply enjoying your lovely voice. Well, enjoy your evening.” he began to turn away.

“Wait! Oscar? Oscar Numbkevitz? Is that you?”

“Uh, yes, I AM Oscar Numbkevitz. I’m sorry, but I don’t recognize you from down here.”

“Wait a minute. I’m coming down.” She quickly stood, smoothed her sundress down and leapt gracefully from the lifeguard chair.

“Wow. Athletic. I like that in a woman. She looks beautiful in that dress, too. But who is she?” he thought.

“Hi Oscar. I hope you remember me. I remember you… I’m Antonia Butisky. I worked with you back at the insurance agency way back when! Back in Bridgewater. I was only there a few weeks, but I remember the picture of your nephew and the plants you always kept on your desk.”

‘Antonia… Antonia…’ Oscar wracked his brain trying to remember her. Not wanting to sound rude, he replied, “Yes, hi, Antonia. How are you?”

“Much better ever since I left the insurance industry! Sales was brutal! But you always brought a smile to my face! It’s so good to see you, Oscar! What are you doing now?”

It was all coming back. Antonia was truly one of the nicest people he had ever worked with. He had been so sad when she hadn’t stayed. He had felt an emptiness every time he walked past her desk.

“Well, I’m still at the agency. Same stuff really. But the people I work with are really great! What have you been up to all these years?”

“I worked for a mail house for a while, then decided to follow my dream and go to cooking school. I now own a small Italian restaurant back in Orange. You may have heard of it – it’s called ‘Antonia’s’.”

“You know, my brother brought some leftovers home from there a few weeks ago. He said the food was fantastic!” Oscar was overwhelmed. ‘She’s beautiful, Italian, a great cook, lives nearby, is a really sweet person and sings beautifully! This can’t possibly be happening to me!’ he thought to himself.

“Oscar, how long are you going to be here? It’s really late now, but I’d love to have lunch with you tomorrow. That is – if you’re available.”

“I would really LOVE to. It just so happens that tomorrow is my last day here. I can’t think of a better way to spend my last day.”

They walked back to the boardwalk together making small talk. They decided on an 11:30 meeting near the Italian ice vendor and headed back to their respective hotels.

Oscar and Antonia slept deep, contented sleeps that night. Eagerly anticipating the next day’s lunch.
Day 7 – The Last Day

Oscar awoke more refreshed and thrilled to be alive than he had felt in recent memory. Dressing quickly and in his boardwalk best Hawaiian shirt, he headed out to arrive at the Italian Ice vendor early. He feared that if he was not there early, his enthusiastic nervousness could ruin his luncheon with Antonia.

Antonia arrived promptly at 11:30 dressed in a flowing blue floral sundress and closed toe sandals. “Could she be any more perfect?” thought Oscar as he watched her approach.

They walked slowly toward a favorite restaurant of Antonia’s and found the conversation never lacking, nor anything less than captivating. Enjoying their luncheon of fresh-made pasta, fantastic salads, tiramisu and delicate wine, it seemed a day nothing short of a dream.

After lunch they continued their leisurely walk along the boardwalk, enjoyed a delightful game of mini-golf, played a few rounds of skeeball and enjoyed more Italian Ice. The day went by quickly and they enjoyed a casual dinner and an evening of talk and romance on the beach after sunset.

“This has been the best day of my life.” Oscar told Antonia as they walked hand in hand along the beach.

“Oscar, I have to say that this must be destiny. How could we have possibly found each other like this? But…” Oscar felt his heart drop into his loafers as she paused. “I don’t know how to ask you this, but why do you have a foot tattooed on your head?”

The asking of such a simple, yet complicated question, flooded him with relief. “Let me suffice to say that it was not something I chose. It has been a long week. Would you mind terribly if we table that discussion until another time? I don’t want to end the evening on that note.”

“Of course, I don’t mind, Oscar. I have enjoyed today more than I can tell you. I feel like we have connected more closely than I can even begin to describe.”

“I feel the same way, Antonia. Thank you for today.”

They fell into a comfortable silence, and settled into the sand to listen to the surf and just enjoy each other’s company.

After what seemed like minutes, but was actually hours, they noticed the boardwalk light begin to dim and realized they should head back to their hotels for the night.

“I don’t want to say, ‘Goodnight’, Oscar, but it’s really late.”

“I feel the same. May I join you for breakfast tomorrow before I leave to head back home?”

“Of course. I would be delighted.”

They walked silently, hand-in-hand back to the boardwalk, then parted ways with a brief embrace, promising to meet the next morning at 7:00am for breakfast.

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In Oscar’s subconscious he felt something nudging him and an odd gravely sound. The touch and noise seemed so contrary to the deep, contented sleep he had enjoyed and even more in contrast to the memory of his evening with Antonia. Trying to get a few extra minutes of sleep, he attempted to shake off the odd nudge and the even more disturbing sound.

“Oscar. Wake up, Oscar.”

The voice was becoming more clear and Oscar realized that he was slumped over in a chair with his forehead resting on a hard surface.

The nudging began again. It felt as if a great paw was pushing him directly above his left shoulder blade.

“Oscar. Oscar! You need to wake up. You slept through the meeting again and we’re going to be late for our lunch reservations.” Oscar lifted his head and looked around to see a conference room empty except for the person with the gravely voice behind him. He rubbed the sleep from his eyes and mumbled, “But, my vacation at BelMar… Antonia… What meeting? I don’t understand…”

The gravely voice answered from behind him. “What vacation, Oscar? It’s February. The beach is freezing. You’ve been here on a conference call with our vice president, but slept through most of it. And…” Oscar felt the giant paw grasp his shoulder and spin him in his chair to face the currently unfamiliar speaker. “Who is Antonia? I’m Toni. Your boss and secret girlfriend. You still owe me a foot massage and we have lunch plans today. You must have had one intense dream.”

Oscar’s guttural cry was said to have been heard as far away as Staten Island.

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Legend has it that that scream was the last sound Oscar made before he lapsed into a catatonic state and was taken away by the men in white lab coats. They say that if you listen closely on February evenings, you can still hear the echo of the scream throughout Central New Jersey.


The Ring

A cool breeze blew in from across the lake scattering the last pieces of the shredded letter across the table. Berating myself for not throwing everything away after my frustration last night, I began to gather the pieces. Crouching under the table to retrieve some of the pieces I found a ring sticking out from under the molding along the floor. Dust-covered and dull, I could still tell that the ring had been something special. Elegantly designed, the ring held an oval green stone in delicate filigree gold. Finding something like this after all of my years at the cottage was shocking. Grandma had always cleaned everything immaculately, I was stunned to think that maybe she had overlooked this piece of jewelry. Her life story had been no secret to me, but I’m sure I didn’t know everything. I sat back against the wall and studied the ring, wishing it could tell me its secrets. Just as I was crafting a beautiful story in my mind, I heard a knock at the door. Keeping a tight hold on the ring, I hid it in my palm feeling a surprising warmth radiating from it.

Looking through my front door window pane was the neighbor who was never at a loss for gossip. My hand reached to open the door, but my intuition told me that I should hide the ring from the neighbor’s prying eyes. Nestling the ring in the deepest pocket of jeans, I opened the door.

“Ophelia, so nice to see you. How are you today?” I asked pleasantly.

“Quite a beautiful day today, don’t you agree? Rayna, I stopped by to ask you a very important question.”

Sensing heat growing from the stone in my pocket, I was suddenly nervous.

“To be honest, I don’t have time to chat with you today. Unfortunately I was about to run out.”

“Very well, I won’t bother you, Rayna. When you have time, I’d like to talk to you about some photos of your grandmother that I recently found.”

X-rays could not have looked my thoroughly at my neighbor than I did at that moment. “Yes, I would enjoy seeing them sometime.”

Zipping past my door, Ophelia’s hand reached toward my leg, “I know you found it.”

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Writing Challenge: Create a short story, piece of memoir, or epic poem that is 26 sentences long, in which the first sentence begins with “A” and each sentence thereafter begins with the next letter of the alphabet.

At Sunset


“Bernd, what will happen to us when you leave for university?”

“We’ll talk every day. But let’s focus on now. Not tomorrow.”

“Nothing will be the same without you here.”

“I promise you my future, Kerstin.”

She looked into his eyes with love as he wrapped her into his embrace.


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50 word story hosted by Scottish Book Trust


Talking on the edge in Zurich
— Alexandre Dulaunoy