I’m a firm believer in making what you want happen. If you can dream it, you can be it.
All of those feel good motivational phrases that are supposed to fill your soul and inspire you to keep moving forward.
I get it. I really do.
But, what I don’t understand is… If I have been dreaming it, why hasn’t it happened yet?
I look around and see other people living the life I’ve been dreaming. The life I had planned.
I have always been confident that I could do what I plan, what I dream. But… my life has changed completely. I am now starting over.
I am not a quitter. It’s just not my nature.
But I’m angry (see my other post). I’m aggravated. I’m getting tired of fighting an uphill battle.
Some people just seem to have it so easy. (Yes, I know, the highlights reel.) They seem to have things just fall into place.
Have they just been that incredibly fortunate to find the path they are meant to follow?
If I was on the right path, wouldn’t things be getting better instead of worse?
I know I need to keep dreaming my dreams. Keep moving forward. One day at a time.
I need to find a way to piece my dreams back together.
I know where I want to be. When I get there, it’ll be a lot different from what I had originally imagined… Only because my biggest dreams are being rearranged and then put back together. I need to have faith that they will be as beautiful as I had imagined in the beginning.